Cut Throat Expectations?!!!
according to a dictionary online expectation is the long-run average value of a variable over many independent repetition of an experiment...feeling like an economics Bsc degree holder*swag*,it is also
The act or state of expecting or looking forward to an event as about to happen and is expected to happen..in yoruba word 'pata pata Shaa eleyin gbodo shele'...
Nobody wants to fail, nobody wants to loose face in front of family and friends, i thought I was above that feelin. You see, i like to think of myself as strong willed, independent and other words to qualify a feminist (yea, in league with Lorde,Chinamada,Bey and Co..loool) but I recently found out I am human,i am effing scared to fail. I think I have been sort of protected all my life(not literally),i haven't exactly lacked anything..so from my parents/friends perspective 'what fuccing reasons do I have to fail or fall short?!..
Sighs!,i am through with a major phase in life but I recently discovered I am scared to tell people cos they start to expect(jeez!!!)..there is so much invisible pressure on my brain to stay on the pedestal...
I can start to understand what the first-born is facing (steecks I see it clearly I swear)...
I can't say I would ever overcome this 'expectation diseases' but I think the best way to cope with the pressure is to map out exactly what you want (if possible before the pressure hits cloud 7),start to work on it and be confident enough to say 'this is the route I am taking, please chill' (the lazy ones would love this,heheehe).Do something!, when people don't see you on your couch watching tv and eating eran dindin often, they won't ask 'those' questions or want to have those 'talks’. Don’t have a blabber mouth biko,i know we all like to mini brag sometimes but they say once you tell someone before it happens,it won't happen(that's what I hear). And it is very important to pace yourself, after all you are human. Don't take on too much to try to impress people; it is more pressure on you if you do.
I am still with the disease so I am still testing all this my suggestions.
If they don't work...you better start submitting you CV every where #Goodluck
Nobody wants to fail, nobody wants to loose face in front of family and friends, i thought I was above that feelin. You see, i like to think of myself as strong willed, independent and other words to qualify a feminist (yea, in league with Lorde,Chinamada,Bey and Co..loool) but I recently found out I am human,i am effing scared to fail. I think I have been sort of protected all my life(not literally),i haven't exactly lacked anything..so from my parents/friends perspective 'what fuccing reasons do I have to fail or fall short?!..
Sighs!,i am through with a major phase in life but I recently discovered I am scared to tell people cos they start to expect(jeez!!!)..there is so much invisible pressure on my brain to stay on the pedestal...
I can start to understand what the first-born is facing (steecks I see it clearly I swear)...
I can't say I would ever overcome this 'expectation diseases' but I think the best way to cope with the pressure is to map out exactly what you want (if possible before the pressure hits cloud 7),start to work on it and be confident enough to say 'this is the route I am taking, please chill' (the lazy ones would love this,heheehe).Do something!, when people don't see you on your couch watching tv and eating eran dindin often, they won't ask 'those' questions or want to have those 'talks’. Don’t have a blabber mouth biko,i know we all like to mini brag sometimes but they say once you tell someone before it happens,it won't happen(that's what I hear). And it is very important to pace yourself, after all you are human. Don't take on too much to try to impress people; it is more pressure on you if you do.
I am still with the disease so I am still testing all this my suggestions.
If they don't work...you better start submitting you CV every where #Goodluck
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